Happy New Year
So, it is 2026. I'm a little late with starting my blog, but I'm setting the intention of seriously keeping an account of this year. I've tried and failed at keeping a journal many times, as the idea of chronicling both the exciting events and the mundanity of my life has always been appealing, but I've mainly struggled with the actual physical task of writing things down.
It takes a long time to write entries by hand, and my hand gets tired after not very long anyway, which then leads to me omitting certain details if they aren't "vital" - which, what does "vital" mean when there's no reason or cause for doing something to begin with, and no real storyline that necessitates details?
So my logic is typing = easier for many reasons, which will hopefully help me stick to this little resolution of mine. I'm aware it will probably take me a while to work out the kinks and get into the groove and find a writing style, so forgive me if it's a bit janky and please bear with x
On the topic of New Year's resolutions, I'd actually like to put my others down in writing here too so I can look back this time next year and reflect on whether I've successfully stuck to them or not. So here we go:
- Keeping this blog, as we've established. I'd like to update it regularly, but I won't pressure myself to write an entry every single day because I definitely won't stick to that and will get frustrated and annoyed at myself to the extent that I'll just give up altogether. Maybe it will become daily in time, but right now I'll do regular updates.
- I'd like to take better care of my hair this year and try out more styles with it. My hair has always been on the thin side and this has also always annoyed me, so I'd like to try using a hair oil that is supposed to promote thickness to see if it has an effect. Originally I wanted to try the Cecred edge oil but it's VERY expensive and hard to get delivered here, so I found out that The Ordinary do a dupe that uses similar peptides or something. I don't know the science. But I will be trying that.
And trying more styles. Particularly I'd like to learn how to properly plait my hair because I feel like it's a very basic skill that I've just never mastered and now is the time to do it! - My last resolution is that I'd like to say yes to more things, and I'll tell you what triggered this.
I had planned to meet up with Caoimhe, Clodagh and Aimee in December for a night out after getting back from Australia, but didn't get a chance to message them until the 6th or 7th to try and arrange a date. Well, Caoimhe and Clodagh had plans both weekends, and said that Niamh B was organising a 12 Pubs in Belfast the following weekend and I'd be more than welcome to join. I debated it for a bit and even messaged Aimee too to see if she was tempted (lost cause) but then I just thought fuck it why not.
But the thing is, I know a few years ago my mindset would have been "Oh they don't actually want me to come, I'll be butting in" even though I was explicitly invited, and she didn't have to say it was happening at all. So I like to think that that's a bit of growth, and I'd like to continue that trend. It might seem like a small thing to others, but my confidence was not great in the past, so for something like that to not even phase me now I can't help but feel a little proud. So more of this!
- If and when a supervisor role comes up in work, I really think I should go for it. The main obstacle for me would probably be the interview itself because I'm terrible at them, but also because Roisin will most likely be on the panel and it's a bit awkward having to brag about how unreal I am at my job to my current manager, and if I tried to big up anything she'll see it straight away. Not that I think she would pull me on it or make any type of comment to the rest of the panel. Probably the opposite, actually. But it's still just so awkward.
The hours will also suck a bit, but it isn't actually very hard work. Supervisors don't do tours, so it would mostly replying to emails and admin stuff which I think I can handle. Personality wise, it'll probably be a learning curve but nothing I couldn't handle, just in terms of interacting with higher ups in the council, conflict resolution with difficult customers, etc. Why not just go for it? - I don't know when I'll get my head out of my ass with Claire and make a move. I'm just so clueless when it comes to this kind of thing, and it's so much more complicated now that she's introduced me to Cormac and we have our London trip in July, there's actual proper stakes now and I don't want to ruin anything. Not that I think she is the type to reject me and then never speak to me again, which makes it even more stupid that I can't just tell her how I feel. I have so many ideas and plans that would be perfect to do with her. To be honest I just want to do everything with her. I'd like to say I'll do something about it soon, but I honestly don't know if I can. HOW DO PEOPLE DO THIS?
- Change my look up a bit more. I have been talking about getting rose gold highlights for ages, so maybe do something about that. And more tattoos!
I also just bought this pair of leopard print Doc Marten loafers last night off of Vinted with the aim of spicing up my wardrobe a little too, dressing a little more interestingly and adding some bright colours.
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